This is my journal that I wrote during my second attempt at in-patient rehab for being an alcoholic. The time period is spring of 2022. I’m copying these in order so if you want to keep the timeline intact start with the oldest and not the newest post. When I finish copying those pages I might keep posting my continued journal entries if I fell there’s a point to do so.
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*homework*
Why I Don’t Feel
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Sleep & Rehab
I’ve found my sleep schedule here to be more like it was when I was a kid, it’s weird. In a way I’d say it’s similar to campoing. When I go camping I go to bed earlier than when I’m home. So much fewer distractions: No TV; computer; smartphone, artificial lights, etc. I can only…
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*group councler challenge*
Pick Something You’ve Learned To Love Sober Why I Started Journalling My two previous attempts at recovery/remission of my alcoholism, obviously, didn’t work. I wouldn’t be back so soon if they did. I thought I was really working this program, but this third time I’ve realized that I wasn’t really. I was going to group…
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Allowing Vulnerability In My Sover Life.
As I’ve been going through the rehab process for the third time, there’s one of my thought challenges to face – being vulnerable without alcohol. During this process I thought one of the main reasons for going to the bottle was so I could feel, feel human. I’ve suppressed my emotions for so long as…
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What Does PAWS Mean To Me?
Post: After somethingAcute: Sharpness or exact but not chronicWithdrawal: Do without or give up somethingSyndrome: A condition or affliction Giving up my addition to alcohol puts me in a position to experience physical and mental withdrawals. Stress, worries, doubts, fear, depression, anxiety, etc. triggers my PAWS. My default “go to” has been alcohol for 26…
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Survived Detox
So, I made it through my eight days of detox (the initial group name before moving into residential) and am now in residential groups/classes. So much is going through my mind and body right now… Will I succeed this time? Because I’m back again so soon, am I just a failure? The people here and…
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Welcome Back to the Fun House!
Well, this is day three of 38 for my second stay at in-patient. My name is John and I’m an alcoholic. I have been a “hot and heavy” drinker for the past 26 years. It started off light and just to fit in after joining the US military straight out of High School. This actually…
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Initial Thoughts
Well, I’m going to post my journal entries online. I’ve been thinking, praying and talking about this for a few years now. Resources have been very slim and I finally found and decided to follow through with this. When I started this journal I had just finished my second time through in-patient treatment for my…